Hello, my name is Nai and my life is a big, flaily mess.
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Here is where I write, draw, and paint about ‘flailing about’ in various situations.
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I have been gifted a pause in my life. A rare moment of no pressure to do…anything. Which of course means I am rethinking everything. What am I doing with my life? What matters to me most? How do I make meaning and money at the same time? These three words keep popping up. Create. Beauty.…
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And why I struggle with serious people The barista has a pink star painted above her left eyebrow, but there’s a worrying lack of irony. “Oh my, that looks delicious.” I make ridiculous yummy noises over my glossy cappuccino and dark-dense cacao slice. She doesn’t crack. “Vegan and organic,” she drawls. ‘“Our friend buys the…
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Why it terrifies me and how I’m learning to work through the fear I am a new online writer. I have always written in private. But this is me finally going public. I am also a perfectionist with impostor syndrome who has spent her life running away from pretty much everything. I don’t mean the…
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This week, I started to explore still life, which led to the question: ‘What is ‘Still Life’? The definition that comes up on Google is: ‘a painting or drawing of an arrangement of objects, typically including fruit and flowers and objects contrasting with these in texture, such as bowls and glassware.’ Definition from Oxford Languages This didn’t sound…
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What’s going on inside my dog’s head? Are we living in a simulation? And does it matter if we are? Does anyone really know me? Do I really know me? Is there really no alternative to Capitalism? What does it feel like to be a rock? What does it feel like to be a bat?…
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No, I’m not living in an alternative time dimension where a week only lasts 2 days. I’m dealing with my ’emigration backlog’. So, I tried to paint some portraits and found it rather tricky! They are all unmistakably human and each is infused with a tiny hint of their subject. Like over diluted fruit squash,…
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I have friends who like to ‘use’ time on long journeys to catch up on work or emails or ‘pass’ the time on social media. For me, the fact that I am going somewhere feels like I’m doing enough… I settle into a peaceful meditation of flyby views. Occasionally, an epic audiobook lulls me into…
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Firstly, I’m still going!! And I’m still enjoying it! I don’t even feel slightly tempted to run away. That is very exciting. So…I decided to try a proper online course to up my skill level and widen my watercolour vocabulary. I went for ‘Creative Watercolor Sketching for Beginners’ with Laura McKendry (hosted by Domestika). Partly…
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Is Order Overrated? To me, there seems to be more potential in mess than in order. Mess spurs action…admittedly towards order…but I think a common un-useful idea is that once order is reached, mess will be permanently vanquished. The wonderful feeling of sitting in a room that you have just tidied does not last. The…
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I bought a new coat made out of recycled plastic bottles. Smug as a bug in a rug. Don’t tell anyone it was made in China.
flailing about 